Jennifer Lopez, the recently reinstated American Idol judge, opened up in an intimate interview with Cosmopolitan magazine about everything from her career to her relationship with Casper Smart to her controversial appearance at a celebration for totalitarian leader Gurbanguly Berdymukhamedov (which did not, as you might imagine, go over well).
When asked about that particular performance, she said that everyone makes mistakes. It’s simply what makes us human. “I know that being seen as a role model means taking responsibility for all my actions. I am human, and of course, sometimes I make mistakes. But I promise that when I fall, I get back up. When I am wrong, I will learn the lesson and move on to face other challenges. For me, that’s what creating your own life is. Doing your best work while being your best self.”
Another thing the singer struggles with, which might surprise most, are prolonged bouts of insecurity (despite being one of the most successful performers of all time):
“It was after I had kids to be honest… The biggest insecurity I had was my singing. Even though I had sold 70 million records, there was this feeling like, I’m not good at this. And while I was married to Marc [Anthony], he helped me get over it. He kept telling me, ‘You’re the only one holding yourself back from reaching your full potential as a singer. You have to let go’… I was always so insecure and just kind of going along.”
She adds, “Then I grew, little by little, and realized, wait a minute, this is not a fluke. I’m not a mistake – I work my a** off. And I know what I’m doing.”
She eventually moves onto the topics concerning her new man, Casper Smart:
“For me, it’s about having a great partner to walk this life with,” she explains. “I have my own high standards for what I want in a partner and how I want to be treated. I bring a lot to the table. I’m not talking about material things but what I have to offer as a person – love and loyalty and all the things that make a good relationship.”
“It’s funny, early on with Beau, I remember telling him how I have a real button on being ignored. And he was like, ‘Listen, if somebody ignores you, then forget them. They don’t deserve to have your attention.’ But it’s funny. Sometimes when we don’t get it, we try to get it in an negative way, you know?”
Be sure to pick up this copy of the magazine, which will hit shelves on September 10th! What do you think about Jennifer Lopez/American Idol hooking up again?
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